(Another in a series of pieces about my familia.)
My old man
sitting under the stars -
traffic flow,
siren call,
tv squawk,
fire glow,
streetlight shine,
cigar smoke.
My old papa
preferred the night sky,
flaming scrap wood
in the burn pit
at his feet.
Solitary witness,
solitary thoughts,
wafting out on
tobacco stream.
Some nights
while streets coughed
he’d talk -
classroom days
numberless,
kids squirming
and learning,
world of danger
and wonder,
first words and colors,
team play and numbers.
Some nights
under stars
and memories
he’d fly again,
hopping freight cars
across desert
from LA to Yuma,
street muchacho
with brown skin
dodging railroad cops
with their club justice.
“I ran to familia
from familia woes,”
he told me.
“Alcohol father,
gang avenues,
clamorous streets,
wound up hood,
stolen food.”
“At my Tia Rosa’s
there was always
a place for me.
Menudo Sundays,
pan dulce mornings,
shelter from hot sun
and sandpaper wind,
stars burning
in desert night.”
My old man
still sitting under
the remembered stars,
grown up me
still dreaming
in a plastic chair
beside him,
cool suburban night,
street shine
and fire light
dancing on
our tired brown faces.